RECAP on whats going on :)

Wow it has been a crazy year! I havent blogged in a while but Im really going to try and keep this up. Okay so recap, I graduated from the cosmetology and esthetics program through Santa Barbara City College! Wooo State board here I come!!! I am managing a coffee shop called CAJE in Carpinteria, which is an organic and fair trade coffee shop where we also make smoothies and fresh fruit and vegetable juices. I love it and it is keeping me busy with some extra cash for the hubby and I :) Lets see as far as my weight loss went.... I lost about 40 LBS and am back down to what I was in high school! yay and I did it a very healthy way and it took a LONG time for it to come off but slowly and surely it did :) Theres my re cap on life so far!

Abortion

It is the topic that just breaks my heart. It is something that I just cant seem to grasp. So many people get them, plan to have them, or say if they got pregnant they probably would have one. This is something I have been passionate about since I was 14. Maybe i owe that to my mom for showing me the pictures of abortion at that age. Maybe I just have a conscious. Maybe I have the mental capacity to take responsibility for my actions.
People will argue that at the moment of conception until about 3 months the baby is not a baby. It is an embryo they say. Well how come only when people want the baby it is a baby. It has a heart beat correct? And what about the cases when a woman is about 2 months along and tragically the doctor can not find that heart beat anymore. Those women who wanted that "embryo" are devastated. Whatever it was, it died. ITS A BABY!!!! Its a baby with a heart beat that can die or live!!!!! It is YOUR baby, who loves, trusts, and depends on you. And they have the right to live, you women of America should NOT have that right to play God with your baby and decide whether it lives or dies whether or not it is convenient for you at the time or whatever. This is Gods child, not yours.
It is disgusting, and wrong and it is something that really eats away at my heart from the depths of my very soul. I just cant believe all the babies America has killed. Women, my sisters in Christ even! People will bring up the (rape victims, incest and possible death) Statistics will show that this is about 1% of the case! Can you believe that?!!! I blame the selfish women in the world, I blame the government, I blame the media, I blame our school systems for not teaching about awareness or teaching some sort of moral education, and I blame the feminists. Its disgusting. Grow a conscience America, come on enough already. This HAS TO STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friends

I was at school today all alone. Not only were my 3 good friends at school gone but most of my class was gone. There was a career day or something at a school. So I was alone, which was fine I guess cuz I got a lot of work done. But I was thinking how important friends are. Having company and having people you feel safe and secure around is such an important feeling. Not to mention you have an everyday routine that is really safe and comfortable. And today I realized how much I missed that routine with my close friends. Those three girls are so amazing and are so different from each other. We can talk and entertain each other for hours with our different personalities.
Anyway my friend Kelsie is going to Hawaii for spring break and I am going to miss her so much. She is truly my best friend in school. She and I are a lot alike and we are always there for each other. That is a true friend and that is hard to find. So Kelsie I love you :) And have a safe trip.

Weight Issues (have them or had them?)

Weight, it seems to be my obsession these days. So, like the average person who gets out of high school and goes into college I gained weight. Probably like 20-25 lb's in about 2 years. I'll just be honest here. I also got married so it was really hard with all the "pregnancy" rumors.
"Jackie got married, shes gained weight, shes pregnant."
NO! I'm not pregnant, never was and I'm not going to be for a long time. I got married because JP and I love each other and we we are dumb kids. ha ha jk. No but really, when you know you know. And I just couldn't imagine life without JP and I really don't want to. He keeps me grounded and has made my life so wonderfully normal. I have lived my life with NO regrets with him, and I love that.
Anyway Ive lost about 7 lbs Ive been dieting like crazy! And the weight has been coming off but not as quickly as I would like. I'm going to have to take it up a notch and start working out really hard and it sucks. I am naturally a lazy person, I was just very active in activities in high school. So once all that was over I went from one extreme to another. From hardly eating and working out constantly, to well always eating (the very wrong stuff) and I hadn't jogged or even did one push up for over a year.
So what is the deal with weight? Why is it so important? I just want to be healthy. I don't want people to talk about me and I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to look good for my husband and I want to go to the beach and feel comfortable. Is it healthy to become obsessed with weight to be healthy? How do we get our minds in a healthy place? Why is weight so damn important!! But if I'm going to loose weight, I have to be obsessed and in an unhealthy place mentally to push myself as hard as I can go. I'm not talking anorexia, bulimia or anything like that. First of all I LOVE food, second of all throwing up is a HUGE phobia of mine. Ive tried weight watchers, South Beach, Portion Control. Nothing is working. What is a healthy, fast acting, efficient diet? Id like to start a conversation on this. Please comment your thoughts. If you have had weight issues and lost it let me know how you did. If you are in the same boat as I am and TRYING to loose weight let me know how you are dealing whats your plan. Whatever the case may be give me some feedback.

The Death Penalty

So by now I would think you know that yes, I am a republican. In many ways I would absolutely say I am a conservative republican. There are a few issues that I usually go the other way in; such as the death penalty. I think this is a very out dated punishment in the legal system. I think it goes hand in hand with the "A" that people would have to wear if they committed adultery. Yes there are people out there that do terrible things, such as murder their wives, children, innocent people, and it is disgusting and wrong. We as a society should definitely have the right to get them put away for life; for reasons such as they cant be trusted in the outside world for they could do it again. Also prison is a terrible place, and living in your filth alone with no future, no privacy, and no freedom is the furthest we can go without being in-humane. I am not saying they deserve to be treated humanely but it is not up for us; as people to decide. Would you really want to carry the weight of someones death regardless of what they have done? I would like to see the death penalty go away. I think it is such an archaic way of punishment. And these people should live in the most minimal of circumstances and pay the price for what they did. We kill them, then we put them out of their misery, and I want them to live in their misery. God will take them when it is their time and I believe he will take care of the situation way more just and efficient than we can and more than we should have to.

Today was overall a normal day in cosmetology school. Gave an interesting man a hair cut and a pedicure... lol. Pedicure not so fun, but hey it goes with the territory. My friends and I had fun today we laughed a lot.
Why do some people talk just for he sake of hearing themselves talk? Really, there are so many people like that it really is strange. Maybe they didn't get to talk enough when they were young? hmm i have a teacher that does this all the time and wastes 20 minutes of time and the conversation changes nothing about the task I or anyone is performing.... Anyway hopefully tomorrow is a little more interesting. Tuesdays are always my most boring days of the week.

My rant on the current administration and the youth

Today is a day off of school. It is bittersweet. Its always nice to be able to sleep in and not have to drive to Goleta (where my school is), but then it is also one day holding me back from my graduation day. However hair is not absent from my day. I am going to dye and cut my grandmas hair. It will be nice to see her and talk with her. She is funny and always has some drama going on in her life to keep us interested ha ha.
Besides I really need to tear myself away from the TV all this economy stuff really takes its toll on your mood, quite frankly i am sick and BORED of the whole issue. Lets figure this out and resolve it already. Isn't that why Obama was elected? Isn't he supposed to magically fix the economy? I thought with all of his experience in politics and all of the leadership positions he has held in his career that the presidency would be a piece of cake for him... ha ha. Or maybe he is too busy with his white house basketball court and weekend parties.... Gullible America... Or I really should say Gullible (young) America looking for a rock star to run our country. Thank you very much MTV for playing such an important roll in this past election. Thank you for persuading the youth who are sitting on their couch watching Spring break, The real world, Date my mom etc; to vote for the glamorous left. I feel so good knowing that my generation were able to play such an important roll in deciding the future of our country...
The youth, my generation, has really turned out to be such a disappointment. Morals are lost, books are lost, manners are lost. All that is left is a lazy, impulsive, and ignorant generation. God help us.

Sunday (Gods Day)

Today my husband and I got ourselves up early for church. It was a good message and got me thinking about spiritual warfare. It was a huge reality check for me. Lately I have had my eyes set on glamorous things the world has to offer; money, cars, fashion, big homes, killing myself to be supermodel skinny. All of these things have been my main focus and have been consuming my thoughts to the very depth of my soul. The enemy has really been using these things against me to distract me from the big picture. While I still want to get healthy and fit, I need to get my head right. After all, I could achieve many things the world has to offer but it will never give me the satisfaction that I need. Only God can satisfy our needs and we are going to have to wait. But I am willing to wait rather than loose sight in this life and screw myself for eternity. I want to be a good wife and really focus on getting started in cosmetology. I need to take baby steps and not get too ahead of myself. But mostly I need to get back in the spiritual war for Jesus.

Technology

I go to cosmetology school full time so I have been pretty out of the loop with technology and all the things that it has to offer these days. I will be using this blog to note my days in cosmetology and working my way up in this industry from the very bottom to hopefully get to the very top. On that note I am also only 20 years old and married! Yes it will be one year on April 10th. Im literally just beginning my life; there are no children here or on the way and I plan on keeping it that way for quite a while. I am hoping to move to Hollywood and work on some very interesting peoples heads. That is the plan, the hope, and the dream.