Weight, it seems to be my obsession these days. So, like the average person who gets out of high school and goes into college I gained weight. Probably like 20-25 lb's in about 2 years. I'll just be honest here. I also got married so it was really hard with all the "pregnancy" rumors.
"Jackie got married, shes gained weight, shes pregnant."
NO! I'm not pregnant, never was and I'm not going to be for a long time. I got married because JP and I love each other and we we are dumb kids. ha ha jk. No but really, when you know you know. And I just couldn't imagine life without JP and I really don't want to. He keeps me grounded and has made my life so wonderfully normal. I have lived my life with NO regrets with him, and I love that.
Anyway Ive lost about 7 lbs Ive been dieting like crazy! And the weight has been coming off but not as quickly as I would like. I'm going to have to take it up a notch and start working out really hard and it sucks. I am naturally a lazy person, I was just very active in activities in high school. So once all that was over I went from one extreme to another. From hardly eating and working out constantly, to well always eating (the very wrong stuff) and I hadn't jogged or even did one push up for over a year.
So what is the deal with weight? Why is it so important? I just want to be healthy. I don't want people to talk about me and I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to look good for my husband and I want to go to the beach and feel comfortable. Is it healthy to become obsessed with weight to be healthy? How do we get our minds in a healthy place? Why is weight so damn important!! But if I'm going to loose weight, I have to be obsessed and in an unhealthy place mentally to push myself as hard as I can go. I'm not talking anorexia, bulimia or anything like that. First of all I LOVE food, second of all throwing up is a HUGE phobia of mine. Ive tried weight watchers, South Beach, Portion Control. Nothing is working. What is a healthy, fast acting, efficient diet? Id like to start a conversation on this. Please comment your thoughts. If you have had weight issues and lost it let me know how you did. If you are in the same boat as I am and TRYING to loose weight let me know how you are dealing whats your plan. Whatever the case may be give me some feedback.
Jackie, what you are doing IS working...you have lost 7 pounds, instead of gaining 7 more pounds over the last few months! Losing slowly is a good thing...it actually changes your metabolism. Just keep doing what you are doing, it will come off...kicking up the exercise on your days you aren't at Curves is good...either a brisk walk, or doing a workout DVD...I think you are looking good!
ReplyDeletethank you mommy, :)
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ReplyDeleteSeriously. I have always been underweight.. unhealthily so, and had an unhealthy view on it. Never ate to stay skinny. When I got married I was about 100 or so... after I met Andy at 95lbs him and my friends pestered me to eat. When our little daughter was born, I went up to 130 or so.. and just didn't have the motivation to get rid of it! I ate, and never exercised AT ALL.
Then a really health-conscious girl and I became good friends and I started taking care of myself. I'm back down to 117 (I'm very small framed) within a matter of months. Doesn't seem like much, maybe, but before now I could absolutely NOT lose or gain a single pound (except for once I became pregnant, of course! ;))
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